There's a light behind those darkness

His first sleepover at Yishun

2008-08-22T01:40:00.000-07:00

As him promised, he slept over my place on 10th Aug. I forced him to. lols. Next morning, we woke together (feeling husband and wife) hehe. make warm water for him to bathe. had our breakfast at Mcdonald, Then he sent me to Commonwealth MRT Station. He went home straight. Then, we meet again~Zan cut hair again then we jalan2 at IMM. fheedza

Oh my ...... (urgh~)

2008-08-15T04:53:00.000-07:00

Oh my dear mate, of all places why Marina sQuare?? Dont he knows bout crowd there? Dont he knows its National Day? I just couldnt stand everything especially what i saw. its everywhere. Marina Square has turn to be 3M. (Mats & Minah Mall). But whatever it is spending whole day with you gang was great.

Luckily i was in the movie theatre with em (Khai, Brunei Guy, khai's friend & Zan) watching THE MUMMY. overall the show was great too, except just the ending. A lil' bit pissed off. and bought a can heneiken and taste SUCKS. urghh~~

Everything seems to PISSED me off.

Fheedza

YES! Finally.....

2008-08-11T23:30:00.000-07:00

After half a year, FINALLY MOS-Ing...

MY Last minute PLAN was WORTHWHILE thou. From work to home, and off to Clarke Quay. Meet HOsni up. Party like a ROCKSTAR. =) Thanks mate!

The movie watch us. lols

2008-08-10T23:43:00.000-07:00

~Watching Hellboy then Dark knight the next day. Nothing can be greater than this...

But people, we do have qns mark at the end of the show! Cos' we watch halfway through then fall asleep~

fheedza

Monkey for me?!

2008-07-29T00:45:00.000-07:00

26th july. 'Moodswing'.

As per usual, zan fetched me from work. Todays planned: we planned to dine in at Seoul Garden @ TAKA for dinner. So as was decided we went to Commonwealth CarMall viewing Proton Gen2 (Weekend-2nd hand car). then off to Jurong East Entertainment Centre viewing Suzuki Swift (Weekend-1st hand car). As per my opinion i would prefer him having Suzuki Swift. No particular reason. But whatever he choose or get. i won't mind. Insyallah if there rezeki left for us. (Praying Hard).

Very tired, at 6.30pm- WOah shit! we aldy late! off to Orchard meet zan's mate. Dinner at Seoul Garden, hey its his friend treat named: Joshua. Thanks mate! beside Joshua, there's najib & his Gf & 1 more couple. Cant remember his & her name. But talking to them was enjoying thou!

We make ourselves way to Youth Park to check whether my mates are there or not, But there's no one.So, we jalan2 at Cineileisure. i went in More than words store and saw something kinda huge that caught my eyes. A bear – its monkey so cute! &he bought for me that. Thanks Thanks Thanks !!!!!

We grab a bottle Breezer and sit along the pathway at YP. I thought of going back home on my own taking train. But zan insist to send me home. haish. So, we took cab from Somerset to Yishun, Zan continue his journey home to Bedok & that cost him 40bucks. & he promise me NO MORE CAB-ing. But whatever it is “Thanks lovely”.fheedza

Love, thank so much!

2008-07-25T18:48:00.000-07:00

Wuhoo! Thou Not a really surprise gift from you. But yet i still appreciate it. Thanks for the bag. iLuvit! How many times must i repeat myself? "The thoughts that count" After dinning at Vivo CT. off to Yishun Damp. Reached home almost midnight. Thank to you that you've really really made up my day! After hectic days at work meeting you was worthwhile after all...

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iLuvit!

How far i can go with you, Love?

2008-07-24T22:00:00.000-07:00

You lied to me once & twice.

I trust you once & many times.

Evry matter seems to be small to you but big for me when..

...specially involves my family.I'll try my best to hide and act as thou nthg has happen.

But i cant run away from it when it kept haunting me.

God, Advice me. pls =(

fheedza

Especially to taghatter(s)

2008-07-22T03:33:00.000-07:00

Hey taghatters. (Especially to my dear Sassy & Kepo)
I guess thing has gone too much. You punk has got nothg betta to do huh? tag and fight in my CBOX. I kept myself silent doesn’t mean I’m doing nothing. I’m tired listening to your crap.

Hey Sassy & Kepo,
You bitch! Don’t think I dunnoe who you are? Im very sure that you are the same bitch using different nick in my cbox. Hahaha. Who is BODOH afterall?
I told you:-

"GO & GRAB YOURSELF A BOOK NAMED: DUMMIES FOR TAG HATTERS"

fheedza

I love all the moments. Especially you, Love.

2008-07-21T02:51:00.000-07:00

Oh gosh.Before i forget evrything!Let me recalled and summarized all at one shot.on 4th july. i was out to dbl o with my clubmates watching "all star jimbeam dance competition". the crew that i support & adore the most won. phew!! alot of dancer that night sia. i was there with my clubmates. We had great time boozing and chilling out after that. I've turn mazie's invitation down. last minute, he ask me to accompany him & wawan to JB for kA-OK ing. WTH!

The next day, that's on 5th july in the Afternoon, Zan came over my place. Thot of staying at home spending my time with him. But I have go to grandma plc as aunt is throwing a small birthday party for her 1 year old daughter. So, I bought for her a Minnie Mouse bear -HUGE one! Then at 1030pm we out again with Bro apiz & Kak Irma. We wanted to spend our night watching liveband or Pubbing, more relaxing. As we walked and walked along the Boat Quay pathway. No nice MUSIC! Mm.. We’re looking for a nice place to chillout. Sit on a Sofa, lay back and relax. Urgh~Mind Made up! We went to ‘MindCafe’ at Boat Quay. We play board games, make so much of noise, munch munch munch is a MUST! People, going there is fcuking WORTH IT sia! I wanna go again next month & spend my next nightlife over there. Anyone wanna join us? Lols.

Baby Rina's B'day

Pictures was taken at MindCafe

Azan Dyed his hair on 6th july. Nice. Khai and me was there too witnessing it. From Kimage to Jatzen! Cool or what! He’s looks betta in black hair actually. But hey brown suit him too.Winkx. While waiting for em to dye is hair. Wah sempat browsing their mag. and LOOK! what i've found?!Common but yet that's the Coolest Hairstyle that i wanted the most. But im not sure ppl if it suits me or not. hmm =S

Love the hairstyle!=)

On 10july, Movies with bro Apiz w Sis Irma, Bro Afee w Shila, & im with Zan. I would consider this Sibling w couple day out. Hancock-Not bad, I love it went the head went into the ass! Lols. Woah~~

I was out clubbing at MOS with my clubmates on 16july. Mel & Tong was there too. After a few months I’ve not been there. Lols. The atmosphere aren’t like last time anymore. But hey I did enjoy myself. & it seems that minah is everywhere now. Crap Crap Crap. I almost got myself into a fight. But hey Im in here to DANCE not FIGHT bitch/! They danced and their elbow keeps purposely hitting me and I was standing there doing nothing. Urgh! I had enough~ So I dance. Im lucky they did back off standing aside staring at me with the ‘Not happy face’ but I don’t care! A lot of fight going on, haish.. y? dun ask me. MYOB

On 18july. Im bored! So, I sleepover Sis Irma plc. After finishing a packet of Nasi Lemak.off to bed! Perangai GEMOK! The next morning, I got an surprise. Zan came over and fetch me! Best~~ Thanks Love. Luvyou.

fheedza

Makan Makan Makan

2008-07-15T03:04:00.000-07:00

I gonna bet you that i put on weight this month! lols. i think so. IF only i stop jogging. If you remembered, i had dinner with zan at thai exspress, delifrance & now Sakura. on 03julo8, We met a lil'bit late, as there's some reports i need to finished it up. Till i had no time to eat my lunch. & i purposely don't. Cos i know zan gonna bring me to Sakura. As per his promise. We had dinner at Sakura.

In the foodcourt, The waiter push in the chair for me. Zan get so jealous.lols. He ask me to stand up and ask me to push in the chair myself. haha. i did so. People, you might not find it funny. but its funny for me. and cute too~~

I had Dried Wanton Noodles & he ate Hong Kong Noodles and our side dish will be fried Wanton for us. YumYumYum. Now, im inluv with Fried Wanton. & he too...

Clock strike 10.30pm. i'll sent him off. to bus stop ajek. lols. haish....Baby,i gonna miss you & i know you know that i luv you right......?

Inluv again.

fheedza

Surprise!!!!!!!

2008-07-11T19:42:00.000-07:00

2nd july. hey i got something which is still undone need to finish up. How am i gonna pass the bag to him. As far as i concern, i remember i didnt tell him that i got something for him. So, i gonna be surprise for him.Last night, i only had 2hours meeting my friend in Lala Land & hectic day at work. i was freaking tired plus exhausted plus plus plus. But somehow plan has to move on. By hook or by crook, i need to give him a surprise. Before surprise, i got to know where is his where about. Ok good, he's at Tampines. so Reach home at 9pm. Out again at 915pm..? should be around there uh. Off to tampines. Once has reaches Tampines int, i called him up. asking him where is he? he's heading to home? ! WTF!!!!! ok thanks god that he's not totally at home yet& he's still with his friend, basyir. I told him im at Tampines, you know what he said?

"B, btol. you kat mane? Sumpah you kat Tampines. Btol btol la. l da nak sampai rumah nie"

Hahahahah. i swear once, he still thought im playing a fool. so i keep swearing. Hehe.. i pass the bag to him. hees, loved to see the smile on his face. My hardwork planning everything was paid off.. woah shit. i need to get myself home and SLEEP! I can't hardly open my eyes! & now, i can sleep peacefully and waiting for tmr in my dream for another shitty day in hell at work.

fheedza

You have been a great friend.

2008-07-09T20:01:00.000-07:00

Wellwellwell..

on 1st july,08

As was decided i met idil and look for a surprise gift for zan. i wanna get a crumpler bag for him. but its already late. thanks to idil, i've waited for him more than an hour. So, i just grab a bag for zan without him knowing it, but its not a crumpler bag but it look alike just that the one i get for him is plain black. as i know he really do need one. so, i got him one & im just hoping hard that he would love it. hopefully..

"ok love, i promise to get one a crumpler bag for you.

I own you one love!"

Dinner with idil @KFC, there's no need to thank me. its a treat for accompanying me the whole night going into shop by shop searching for it. i had a can of heneiken & breezer that night, we chilled out& i just killed one caterpillar. phew, that's so disgusting & even idil don even dare to take that caterpillar off my pants. i've screaming for help. idil put his hoody on his palm to get that caterpillar off me. oh thanks. now i know i hate caterpillar!

"get off me you disgusting hairy motherfucker!"

home @ 4am, i guess..

zan is mad at me. sigh, baby pls dun be mad at me. i know this is not the first time happenned. remember what i've told you before? yes,i luv you. but im not all yours yet. i have my space & you too. but its all up to you.

fheedza

Oh Scuk!!! thanks to you mate!

2008-07-09T04:49:00.000-07:00

on 29th june,08

Shaolin girl. oh mann, for your advice dun watch this show. thanks mate you wanting to watch so much. but seriously we dint enjoy it at all. lols. but hey, however. we do enjoy your company mate! From home to Vivo CT with zan. Had dinner with em. while crapping around. & off to watch that stooopiiidd show. Oh goodness, the animation is so not good. then jalan2, im looking for a pair of shoes which can go with my boot cut jean. Yeah. Zan bought for me a pair of jack purcell, grey in colour shoes. then off to jalan kayu and enjoy the tehtarik. sweet&nice. Nothing could be better than this!

zan sent me off till yishun interchange.

...a million...

"thanksthanksthanks"

lovingyou so-much,

& i know you know that:)

fheedza

New baby to the street soon!!!

2008-07-08T20:25:00.002-07:00

Wuhooo~~
hey hey hey. im not pregnant nor not gonna adopt a child! on the 28july2008, after work as was planned, i went to car agent to check on the process of getting a car. a 2nd hand one. but its all depends. we kinda new in the process of getting a car. So, azan's friend named basyir did drop by and gives us a few advices.

So, we decided to get an weekend car instead (as per basyir's advice)to see on our budget whether our expenses would be enough or not. well, im just afraid that everything has to cut down. once he say not to worry so much bout it, i'll just feel betta.oh dear, i just can't wait to ride on it, sitting by your side looking at you driving. Love, its reminds me the old days. heh.

oh baby, iluvyou
fheedza

Dinner @ Delifrance

2008-07-07T20:24:00.000-07:00

27.06.08

Now,
Dinner at delifrance. I don't eat much this time. i guess im just too tired to munch. lols,
i know i know, i sound exaggerating.

i had fruit tarts. and some drumlets with their secret recipe sauce. wOww! I love the baked rice. but sold out! wth!

Bon apetit~

oh love, thanks.

Im just glad that everything has turn out to be normal. i started loving him like before especially the first time we met. how we use love each other. awww~~ Oh gawd, thou years i've been with him, a sudden feeling came i don't wish to be apart from him. & i feel like we are newly date. (meyampah nye aku) maybe that he has change for the better. Not for me people its for his own good!

& i feel it too that he has change. im grateful to have someone like you. the laughter, the hugs & kisses are great. the chemistry is back!

~VictoryVictoryVictory~

fheedza

I want this shit get off my head~~

2008-07-06T20:19:00.000-07:00

26.06.08

After work, i went home and out again at Night went for a booze with a friend at my neighbourhood. Im not gonna mention who is it. Alots of thingS has jumble up in my mind. the ppl i love, the one i respect. and all! im sick & tired of thinking about it! cos i knw the ppl out there just dont care how i lead my life. .good/bad.

i decide. cos no one can stop me.

e best is to just forget bout it. & its time for me think of myself. peace.No wAR! Finish crapping, chatting & talking at 1.45am

Slept @ 2am. Woke up, shits im late again. (tell me something new) fheedza

I luv .Thai Express.

2008-07-02T20:36:00.000-07:00

25.06.08

He decided to watch movie at Plaza Singapura. But i don't want!!! i want to play arcade.i want to play Time crisis III. syiok sia. He lose I win. lols. Oh love, After having alotta fun,dinner with you @ Thai Express was so fun. I love the place, the people the restaurant, the food & and im sure you know that iluvyou. This is his very first pay working as Safety Fireman,

Thank you, love

Dinner @ Thai Express

.bothofus.

finished!

Burp!

After dinner he send me home.

HomeSweetHome.

fheedza

Get off the way Muthaphuckas

2008-06-27T21:57:00.000-07:00

19.o6.08

Let me recall back. ouh ya, shitty night at dbl o. the butch! the mats! the drunkard. Tonight, i got twin. lols. kembar 'boria'. longsleeve in, t shirt out.

first,
i saw this butch, im not sure whether they're bitching bout me or not. you r butch, pls act like one! mulot like pompuan. i'm not gonna mention who am i refering to.To me, he/she simply sucks aand his/her mate too!

secondly,
the mats. goodness sake! when i said im not gonna give you my no. i mean it! so stop pestering me. but thanks to fahan -MY 1 Day Kembar- & his mate for letting me sitting around with em to avoid from those irritating punk!

thirdly,
the drunkard same clanz with e mats that ask for my no.come from no where and disturB us. oh myy.... im sorry mate for bringing in this shit. i know its 'scuks'. sorrySORRYsorry

i lost my purse that night. my spongebob purse at gift from my brotha. :( thanks god that i put my ic & cash in my pocket instead! guess who took it? my own mates. but i dont care her cos her mp3 is with me. i sell off her mp3 if she dint return my purse!i dun gv a damn.

irritating minah! & i bet you i won bring you down to clubs anymore. now, ure on ur own now. im sure youre glad hear that. (so pisedoff)fheedza

GoosebumpGoosebump

2008-06-27T21:20:00.000-07:00

13june08
I was out with dance crew named 5678.
Its jimbean DanceCompetition08. i came down to give em' my full support.

their move, woowoo... goosebumpgoosebump!

syam&me

mel&ashley aizat&me
my inpsiration, mazie
mazie&me 5678
me&haphiz
me& amsyarhe's tired!

5678, one word that explains evrything!

Wow'

MAzie,amsyar,aizAT,Filza,syAM,AshLEy,ZaiHar,HaphiZ.

Mel was there too :)

We dance among ourselves. best.

fheedza

Gig @ home club & Boozing @ MM

2008-06-17T21:52:00.000-07:00

7juneo8
I got plan with sam. Gig at home club that starts at 3plus. Though not my type of genre music they played, but nothing wrong giving em the support. But I did enjoy myself over there. We got complimentary drinks for ourself –one each-

Sam pass his to me as he dint drink. I thot it was just a piece of ticket for entry so, I din’t get a drink for myself. Till I reach cthall and I take a look at it. (oh shit) I should’ve like get two cups of Heneiken! (Damn). i make few friends over there from like a band and Idil. My extremely oldmates is there too, Anas.

At 5plus. Zan fetch me at cthall. Heading to home and off to club with CT. C9 was there too, brotha in and Lan. And regular clubbers I know was there too. Booze Booze Booze.

im ready to rock and roll.lols

Oh yah, this is Sam
(me)(ifa)(CT)
till here, fheedza

Superb Spaggy

2008-06-13T21:03:00.000-07:00

2 june08

Had spaghetti. cook by hash and assist by syam. me&zan drop by awhile as we was invited for dinner. his spaghetti was superly delicious. Played board games w syam. -batterfield&risk-

spending time with uncle and auntie.Hany & younger sis is there too.
Light booze.

that's all folk.cheers.
fheedza

Thanks all.

2008-06-11T03:39:00.000-07:00

31Mayo8

Goodbye teck y,

hi yishun

Thanks hash, pa'man & syam for your help.

To granny, your food was great.

to aunties, thanks for bringing in the atmosphere.

to uncles, u rock.

to mom & dad, i love this plc & i've my own room now

to C9s i gonna miss you all.

to zan, alwayslovingyou.

.smile.

fheedza

Additional pix.

2008-06-10T21:08:00.000-07:00

Thanks hash for being extra patience with me. i noe im irritating.& i purposely do. lols

he get soo0o irritated. especially when i ask for pix from his digicam. hees.

Click here to view.

Oh bitch~~

2008-06-10T20:28:00.000-07:00

22 may 08.

Its Thursday’s night. Where am I gonna heading to? Dbl o. ok I gotta admit this am getting sick in there. But luckily the company I went with really change my mind. Im just with caca n fiza.

In a club I saw few of my mates. But damn to this two fcuking bitch. Im not gonna mention who is it. She lied to me. She told me that she’s not coming but oh mann.. & she actually approached me. Other thing, after I bought drinks for them. And disappear and nowhere to be found.

Bitch uh>? But hey there be no more treat from me anymore! Dream on sucker~~ fheedza

yummy ...(drooling)

2008-06-10T20:23:00.000-07:00

21mayo8

Im craving now and evry then. at 4pm, i was craving for doughnuts(e one with sugar) from bengawan solo! wth!!!.... after work, zan came to my werkplc to fetched me as usual. & i told him that i want doughnuts. he brought me to bukit panjang plaza.

(arent that sswwweeeeetttt>!)

..unfortunatelyno doughnuts left for me!!!dammit~~ended up he bought for me double chocs pancake,sushi and chicken pie and i finish it on the spot. Thanks love! i do appreciate that! ohgawd,but whats wrong with me?fheedza

dots

2008-05-30T19:29:00.000-07:00

15may08

meet zan at dhobyghaut. chill out @ starbucks. then off to clarke q.i bought a can heneiken to start off my night.
hmm. i was introduce to a girl name nana, she's so petite. luckily not midget yet. lols, she bubbly &fun to hang out with. a camwhoring bitch too.

-juslikeme-

(tadahh)

hello mister=)

a MUST!!!
gei it shawty~~
im drooling...

feeling luh sei

80s rewind?
my usual clubmates: akid,caca,nana &fiza was there. @ e arena i saw mama d.its her bday.
happy birthday mamaD

its thursday night! so as usual, to the arena then dbl o. i had some shots and drinks.
-tipsytipsytipsy-

(nana)(me)(fiza)

fiza

nana

nana & me
now im the a late night guardian to evryone.i hv to look after nana & akid. nana was totally fine, only she has bcome 'butterfly'.like biscuit! akid? seekor mahluk yang sungguh kecoh. i had scar. thanks to her. partly my fault, i bought shots so i've to look after her. evrything went out to be sooooo.. KECOH!! fiza was soooo pissed off at me for not looking after ,em. hey, i wanna have fun too like the others!so not fair. but i did have fun. i think soo. fheedza

im attached but im not all urs yet.

2008-05-28T20:09:00.000-07:00

16may08

Ive decided!!!

With those jerks out there that I’ve been dating with. You sucks! You guys are just a piece of jerk who like to play around with girls. Im dating them, im studying them too. They are such a disgrace! Girl, beware!!!

rmbr bout the ring that zan gave me? Its on my finger.now,im attached again. I’ve to learn to love him like before. He was holding my hands and shocked that actually I willing to accept him back. Im happy with him now. We hug and compromised.

But dear dear dear, my life still leads like as usual. I wont stop drinking, clubbing or even smoking. so, dont tell me to stop. im not urs yet.

I know my limits

"trust me that Iluvyou"

fheedza

Party as usual!!!

2008-05-26T21:37:00.000-07:00

8mayo8

this will be like my first time with em.

-fiza,caca,akid,kam-

cool mann.fun! thou they mite not the type of person that i ever hangout with. but its worthwhile trying. =) & they actually bring me to 'the arena' the plc was very nice to chillout. we hit the dancefloor.@12am ,off to dbl o. My dressing was simple. but nice thou.

(see pix below)

me&kam

me&yati

goodgirl gone insane

whr shud be heading to?
fheedza

Just uploaded pix

2008-05-26T00:46:00.000-07:00

k gang, i own u guys this!!!

click this to view! so happy viewingthanks

fheedza

1 may o8-4 may o8

2008-05-23T22:33:00.000-07:00

1 mayo8

I've decided what am i gonna spent for this month. I wanna get hair extension (black,blue and grey). Grab something for zan. Treat my nanny &parent for dinner(i had done it yesterday). and thats it. the rest lump sum are for my evrymth a MUST living stuff like ciggies,booze,clubs,transportation n evryday expenses. so, i went shopping. all i know i manage to get zan something. and i spent like 200bucks that nite?not sure.lols.

2mayo8

As was decided, blue & black extension.cost me 45bucks.(see pix below)Then i receive a call from hash.he ask me to come to Republic Polytechnic. so me &zan took cab.

before after

...then dinner at delifrance. was so delicious! and it happen to saw one of my ex pri-school mate working there too. he gv me discount for the feast. i was surprise& shock that he actually rembr me! lols. then chilled. home sweet home.

Hash&Sidek

zan&me
Picture time!!!!
Now, Its makan time!!!
3mayo8-Cousin's Gathering

As was promised, we plan to pitch a tent. -a cousin's gathering- chilled out. bee, apiz,zan,has,sidek& sham was there. overall my day was totally scuk. scuk, disaster,shitty one. dun ask me Y?!DOTS!

4mayo8

next morning.enjoying the morning breeze. the sound of the waves.very calming and relaxing.when im at the beach, suntaning is MUST. thank got its not raining. phew~ zan and me went to hash's plc to put all the stuff. sidek has left to work.bee & apiz off to home.
very tiring~

-Just left the 4 of us-

till here,toodles.

fheedza

AGE 21 and above gone insane!

2008-05-23T22:06:00.000-07:00

29 April o8- 3o April 08

Zan got his ERS Money. He is so happy. But im not. Cos I dint get a single cent from (toot) government. We went to Bukit Panjang Plaza, accompanying zan to get rid of his hairstyle.lols. We went to Kimage. Wash cut blow cost him 30bucks. I think the price was affordable.
Then home and get some rest.period.

the next day(wednesday) eve of labour day. and mypayday! we watch movie (ironman). i was so sleepy so i dint really pay attention thru out the movie.so i guess i gonna have to garb a DVD OR lend it from my mates. anyone? pretty please..

zan drive my dad's vehicle. he sleepover my plc. fheedza

Finally........

2008-05-05T22:17:00.000-07:00

on 27aprilo8 -zan came over- was resting at home till evening. and i receive a call from hash. off to town. -reach thr @9pm. hash was with arin. after dinner, they bought 1 box of donuts. 12 pcs. off to marina sg. a last minute to catch a movie. finally i get to watch the forbidden kingdom. wuhoo~~

the show was fanstatic. and loved e action move!

below,are some pix to share

-Dinner with hash,arin &zan-

Before movie as usual, camwhoring!!!

Enjoying our 12 pcs doughnuts (bought by arin&hash)

On our way home

-VOGUE-
-Double insane in train-

my Whatever's face

after movie, as promised i meet lan and bro. in @yishun.

reached home @6am~~

fheedza

e ring

2008-05-03T00:08:00.000-07:00

on 26april08
i got a ring from him. a diamond ring.

i was shock and i couldnt accept the gift.

im sorry.

fheedza

Celebrating 2nd brotha bday

2008-05-02T23:53:00.000-07:00

on 19 april

Happy bday bro. a treat from brotha apiz-e 1st one-
at swensen

-brotha afee-

from me to u=)happy moments

me and brothas
feat mom.
shila & afee
bee & apiz
fheedza

stoopid day! lol

2008-04-24T03:02:00.000-07:00

on 16 apr,

i wanna watch the forbidden kingdom! ended up watching the three kingdom instead.

we (me&zan) thot that is same show. was waiting jet li and jackie chan. haha~~
ended up~Summo hung and andy lau in action . aiyo yo. haha

&manage to take some pix

tadahh~~

fheedza

Celebrating Brotha Indra's B'day

2008-04-22T20:50:00.000-07:00

im out w c9 again on 14apr08.

jus a small celebration. Abg man bought for him cake. -so sweet- but too bad. i don eat cake cos i hate whip cream. looking at it can only make me puke. but i ate the fruit instead.

here's some pix:-

after 'makan', they bought me some booze, special brew and asterdam. proceed to fiza's hse and watch everton VS wigan. reach home at 5am. take a short nap. i woke up n GOSH IM LATE..!! fheedza

Oh my gawd.

2008-04-22T20:17:00.000-07:00

12.04.08/Saturday

Today, its like 5 groups of ppl wants me to tag along with them! -frustration-

Group o1: Pool at lucky Plaza with Bee and Apiz
Group o2: MOS with Mazie
Group o3: Play with Hosni
Group o4: MOS with Mel
Group 05: Dangdut with Club 9.

Guess where i go? lols! i've made up my mind. never in life i've been to dangdut. so decided!
im out w c9. (lan,alip&abg in)

i wore dress la sey. and camwhoring non-stop.lols. well.. its very rare for me making a fool of myself by wearing dress. lan laughed at me.

they ask me to wear sumthing casual. oh gawd!wrong dress code! haha.

ive tried dancing with heels la kan. aiyo yo. really2 not me. (disgusted)

my twin(lols)

fheedza

Thursday Night (10 April 08)

2008-04-22T19:35:00.000-07:00

As was planned, i met ser chin at clarke quay and proceed to dbl O. So i get my hair cut. i look like fcuking minah! oh gawd. i must be xtra careful of how i dress up. i had some booze before that at Youth Park. (just lil-bit)

:) that night was fun. i meet new friends. but hey i dint know their name. am i supposed to know?lols. there this guy out from no where wanna dance with me. heya~ his gf was half drunk. i dont wanna pick a fight sia. -crazy- i dint even dare to move one step ahead. lols

but thou that was the fun moment. cos there's him and his friend.=)

thanks mate for being there!

fheedza

Street Cult Part III @ Dbl 'O'

2008-04-22T19:18:00.000-07:00

Thanks mate. if not bcos of you i won be able to c any of this pix.

1o Jan o8

Performance by phiz,elly &amshar

e battle begins
i won 2nd
maz won 1st
fheedza

Play Again (no more again)

2008-04-21T02:06:00.000-07:00

5 Apr 08

Finally, I declared 'im sick of it!'. is it becos of the company that im going with? i think so.Cos' usually i went there with K.J, Faizal, Arin,Hash, Sufri n Lynn. But now im going w Hosni and his friend. we went out for dinner. i would consider this as a date. a group one- lols Then off to Play. But im not sure what wrong w me. i ever fall in love to that plc but now.. but i didnt find it enjoying at all, hmmph. I was kinda sad (pissed off) cos some of his friend went off. WTH. -sigh-

-Here some pix of us at play. (uploading soon...)

so left with me, hosni and hykell. then end up hykell went off too. so left me and hosni. we walked from Tanjong Pagar

-> Boat Quay. Thou tiring, but it was nice date afterall.. Its aldy 4am. we went to me Hosni's friend. my friend too. his name is faizal aka faiz. @ BOSS BAR. ouh my gawd. they play indians song all the way. but still it was fun afterall. cos i get to c whats inside "indian's bar". lols. Last stop. we chill out at Boat quay till 6.30am (while waiting for my 1st bus).

- home -

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

fheedza

not so-new hairdo =)

2008-04-20T22:46:00.000-07:00

i don't care. i got to do something with my hair! tadahh..

2008-04-17T19:19:00.000-07:00

Nightlife are LOVED!

now, im like a party animal. haks.lols .music is my life now. on 03apr. i was out to double o. i bought new hoody yesterday. cost me 121 dolla. Loved it! oh gawd! i dont believe it ppl. i was surrounded with e mints and mats. no way mann. those offended im sorry. lol..

fheedza

AMBience VI + Additional pix

2008-04-15T21:05:00.000-07:00

**Additional Pixs**

On 28 march,

was out with hash, zan,hash's mom.

Anderson Military Band

presents

"AMBience VI"

@ Victoria Concert Hall

Hash's Family
me and the band star! lols
fheedza

PLAY again (22 Mar o8)

2008-04-12T00:30:00.000-07:00

We HV some booze, smirrnoff with sprite. then off to PLAY.

Im in luv with PLAY. i love the music there and love the peeps there. and i met lotta 'happy' .people and especially the one i know. wuhoo~~ after play as usual. we went to faizal and K.J crib. was so tired and i am the first one to dozed off.

(zzzz)i guesso..

WE on our way to meet the rest

(im bored)
KJ and me
(CAMWHORE)

fheedza

Good Friday Eve

2008-03-29T23:48:00.000-07:00

M.O.S on 20 Mar 08-goodfri's eve

As was planned with my colleagues, we off to dbl O. but hey, i cant stand the crowd. Plan changed! Plan B : to MoS. wUHooo~~ Lets get ghetto-ing!!

Before mos meet my lovely bro and his GF

Fheedza

moderately drunk night!

2008-03-18T04:11:00.000-07:00

on 15march (Very Happening!!!wuhhoooo~~)

after Nurul get engaged,
zan came and we make a move. at 8pm home then -siapsiap- off to town then meet the rest. (hash,arin,sufri,faris,lynn) after movie, we chill out again then only faizal and K.J join us. we buy some booze (smirnoff, famous grouse and gordon with a mixture of green tea and sprite) i drank a lot. we 'bottom up' together. (lynn,faris S., sufri and K.J) and (Arin, faizal, hash, zan and me). are together bottom-ing up too. lotta fun!! thou i drink alot. im only moderately drunk.

...after booz-ing,zan make a move and the rest including going off to Play, we dance and party. wuhoo~~~ "One night only, one night only....."hahaha.. i love tt song! after party-ing we went over k.J and Faizal's crip. sleepover. but we still drink till the morning sun rise. the great night ever,

after movie, we manage to take some pix.

was taken by arin (imsosmall)
at Kj&Faizal's crip, make up by arin

i wanna be nyah now!!!lols

V.O.G.U.E

forget the outfit!

...The next morning off to Taman Warisan . lynn hving a performance there. then continue chilling out again! at night we met K.J and faizal for karaoke at Cash Box Studio. we really had a lotsa fun. my weekend was fcuk-ing happening. Haslinda and Faris joined us after that.

wow! happen-ing nyer! at 4am i've reach home. zzzzzzz. (shit) i hv to work tml!!!

fheedza

Congratulations

2008-03-14T08:48:00.000-07:00

on 15 mar o8

cheh.. my sista lup da ade domestic partner now! woohoo~~

she 19 and aldy engaged! thou she's young. im proud that she willing to settle down w a guy she dated with. finally! here some pixs of her or us! and the rest.

This is her, Nurul Raziyana

Love her make up
e ring
bubul & noi2
(clockwise from bottom left):

catty,nora,lisa,me,diana,nurul
Fheedza

pics. click link for more..

2008-03-10T20:33:00.000-07:00

Finally,

i manage to get the the pix. thanks hash.

Pix taken on: 08.o2.08 cny picnic w cousins.
for more pls click here.

After picnic-king. we manage to take some pictures. Enjoyista:)

all cousins

feat. tong&zan

fheedza

missing you, cuz....

2008-03-07T19:29:00.000-08:00

sorry peeps, for not blogging anything for past few days. -my very bz week-

workload in our department becoming more and more. and now i've to sit w my 'bigshots' (damn) now, i got to watch my every moves. no browsing internet when they are around, no coming late, no mischievious action, no climbing there and here. work work work.

this past few days my relationship w all my cuz is not doing good at all.its been a week i've not been meeting hash. not even for once.(sigh) im really not that sure what's my fault. for past 1 week he has not been looking for me. frankly i admit i do miss him alot. but how am i gonna go straight at his face and say it? god, really not me sia!

today is arin's birthday. i've got something small for him. hope he likes it. hopefully arin will be there for step up so i can pass the gift to him. if he's there, im sure hash will be there too.. (hopefully)

today plan, chilling out w cha and zan at town.

all i want to c him. thats all.

(missing him) fheedza

im .loving it.

2008-02-29T01:44:00.000-08:00

Ministry of sound

Browsing and browsing and i found this! tadaahhh..``~~~!

www.mumtazz.com

mel & me

for more click to this link

http://fheedzaluvmusic.blogspot.com/2008/02/ministry-of-sound.html

~~cheers & enjoyista~~

fheedza

Heartless Creature

2008-02-27T22:09:00.000-08:00

heartless creature!!!

guess who???

Hash
(so pissed-off)

fheedza

SHITTY day at work

2008-02-27T19:47:00.000-08:00

27.02.08
(shit) im so tired.i only hd 2 hours to meet my friends at Lala Land yesterday. now. -eyebag growing- what a shit day for me at work.was so into work,data saved! but its gone now! (fcuk) eerghh.. i dont care uh. i got dance prac today.zan fetched me from work then off to Hwa chong Sec dance studio. ended me back out from the dance comp, im afraid tt i cant commit myself like the other mate do. cos im working and schooling soon, once again, sorry arin!

i brought zan over as well,and they ask me who is he? haha.. my boify. and who is hash? my bf too? hmmph

~~no la, hash is some1 i date with and zan is some1 i fall in love with~~

but the fact is. hash is my cousin. and no more asking k! shh..(shut). today arin off to australia for a week. gooderluck bro. and take care. have to look after my lovely cousin,hash for arin. hey but he big enurf mahh.. so need la. haha.ok kk.. off to work. cos' ppl started watching me at work. o_Ofheedza

dance prac at Apsara Studio.(26.02.08)

2008-02-26T22:40:00.000-08:00

Thou day was tiring. but no matter what prac must go on. 1 & 2 boom boom... blah blah blah.got to know new friends. nice knowing you peeps!now, ive to pretend again being someone gf.

(staying over hash plc. chilling out w arin)

love,fheedza

(no title)

2008-02-26T22:34:00.000-08:00

Sunday/24.02.08

we are broke. has decided we will staying put @ home. zan is coming over to keep me accompany.

nothing else we can do.i've finish my household chores before he reaches.

Now,

karaoke time! cos' my work is done

(pissed off) he didnt sing properly! eerrr.

"nk nyanyi, nyanyi btol2.kalo tak nak biar i nyanyi sorg2"

(repeating & repeating)

fheedza

Free DANCE day

2008-02-26T22:22:00.000-08:00

17.02.08

for so many years, i've not been dancing. pheww.@ Apsara Asia-Kampong Kapo Rd 15buck was so worthy thou im not paying it. lol.had the chance to try other type of dance movement except hip hop. i've tried- mtv hip hop, lyrical hip hop, even bhangra and bollywood. haha. waited for arin, till he finish clearing up his studio. proceed to arin's home . (staying over w hash)

the first day i know arin's mummy, daddy, kak aifa, abg amid and their childs. (so the adorable)they are so friendly and im irrating. arin starts enjoying poking me and make me 'melatah'. ouh thanks. fheedza

Movie at Grand Cathay

2008-02-26T22:06:00.000-08:00

Before movies, celebrating KJ's 21st Birthday at Billiy Bomber

16.02.08-(me&zan)(mel&tong)(fiz&bee)(hash&arin) feat. (k.J&Faizal)
Dessert at BillyBomber.banana split.

(oops. not this)

haha.sorry hv no pix for tt..

at 1.30am->(k.J&faizal)home

(bee&fiz)p.s i love you

(me&zan)(mel&tong)(arin&hash)jumper.

home w zan (sleep)

fheedzA

im somebody who always cover ppl ass!

2008-02-26T21:55:00.000-08:00

15.02.08

(ended up me in some deep shit. always)

the day i hv to pretend to be someone gf.

"nie untok olok2 ajek,bukan btol2 eh"

he has been using this phase for so many times.

i know!

Fheedza

cny picnic on 08 Feb, 08

2008-02-26T20:17:00.000-08:00

its chinese new year.my off day. finally.. woke up in the morning. pack my stuff before my step dad wakes up. if not i won't be able to go out. can la but it just that i'm not too sure how am i gonna face him. rushing off to bedok. fetch zan then proceed to Pasir Ris Park meeting the rest.(syam,hash,mel,tong,bee&fiz) unpack our stuff and pitch tent. the plc was so cool.& even there's a foldable table and chair. (Smangat!)

syam&hash

e two smangat camper
sun bathing
(lost)

haha..oops

at night. booze night. arin joined us->get drunk, sober and all. i was making so much of noise. crying out papa papa papa... i guess i've misses him so much. fiz, my bro gave me one tight slap on my cheek.to wake me up but it doesnt work. and me, still continue crying.. then gone to sleep! there they r without me. enjoying taking pix

here they are

bee,hash&arin hash&arin

the next day, i woke up. try to recall everythg what had happen last night. bee told me i push her away when she's trying to comfort me and her feet hit to somethg then bleed and plastered. those whom i hurt ,sorry! off to hash's plc. chilling out. left w zan,bee,fiz,mel & me.a treat from fiz & bee.canadian pizza for lunch. fheedza

06.02.08

2008-02-26T01:02:00.000-08:00

After work, heading to hash's plc. just wanna kill my time to meet the rest. as was planned, after dinner -> tan tock seng hosp -> bar. 1st stop,paying lia sis a visit. she was sick. once reach we ask the reception counter, we just got to know that she has been discharge since @tan tock seng hospital...

a pix b4 meetg the rest

2nd stop,

Dinner at Novena square at 9-10pm.before party, "kite makan dulu"

me&bee

hash

next stop,tantric bar.my not so drunk night.treat from hash.long island tea.and some burbon coke.and i start talking crap.so irritating.i've been kissing around even with stranger.(what the hell)more than a stranger. (2gay,2bisex+2cousin)what a bitch man, im drunk and i've been asking around are they straight or not. my gawd,what am i thinking im in gay pub! but it was fun night. hash really get pissed off. especially with me. haha.

bee & fiz

mel&tong

confirm sober!

1st guy tt caught my eye

me.mel.tonggood girl gone badhash & mel
arin.me.kJ
i cant hardly open my eyes!
(oops)

Home sweet Home at Hash's plc.
fheedza

Ministry of Sound

2008-02-26T00:00:00.000-08:00

02.02.08-Ministry of Sound

Scene 1:Dinner at LiangCourt MacDonald

(me&zan.tong&mel.hash&bee)

zan & me tong & zan
just me
me & lia
Queen of Cam-whoring

Scene 2: MOS Smoove

(fad & lin joined us) we were split into two. drinker and dancer.haks

fad & lin

tong.mel.fhed.zan

hash.bee.lin.fad.(?)
Scene 3: heading to home

Cousin are loved

(home.sweet.home)continue chilling out at bee's plc. (zzzzz)

fheedza

-s$178.55 on shopping

2008-02-25T22:45:00.000-08:00

Now,(as promise again) haks.the recap.

o1.o2.o7
its pay day!(yahoo) and its working day(sigh):the day where all employee go crazy and scary!yes, i know what i should buy. a pair of canvas shoe! or won't be able to club tmr.I was crazy. i admit! i spent for almost 2oobucks without thinking.but it worthwhile i've update my wardrobe! as last..

i bought:-

a pair of shoe @ nike b.i.r.d store (s$116.60)
urban cap @ addidas store(s$32.00)
gallaz footwear @ flash and splash (s$29.95)

when i grab a pair of canvas shoe. i had fallen in love. to who? not to anyone. loved it.the pair of sweater from nike b.i.r.d. its gold and white! imagine it! wow.. gonna grab it on my next pay. Thru out the night i was so busy with shopping on my own.my lovely cuz,mel did turn up but later..

..and next stop (as planned) off to raffles hosp banquet.its dinner time.a treat from hash my another aggressive(but lovely too!) cuz, arent tt great? his bro. was there too.we walked from bugis to city hall to catch our last train. (pheww) but luckily hash willing to help me carrying all the stuff.hey he insist ok! so sweet.thanks mate! fheedza

Simply .Fheedza.

2008-02-25T22:20:00.000-08:00

Back! (as promise) before recap, this is what in me that i believe the most.

Fheedza

(Reborn)

2008-02-23T21:06:00.000-08:00

hey bloggers or the (kepos),
yeah yeah i was just kidding, you know me~~

...its been a long time i'd not using this webbie. i've erased all my old account and reborn. tadahh~~

(whatever) ok ok i will stop.

well. my life has been great and till now was superb thou im broke! (haks)

let me recap everything(if i could rmb).continue reading..